Hey Everyone,

I shall no longer be visiting this account, I've gotten bored with it and decided to start fresh! Especially as next year i'll be doing TEE Art at school and will be able to submit some decent artwork, rather than half-hearted deviations.
My new account: [link]


So if you watch me want to continue watching me.. please watch my new account... Thank you all for your comments and suggestions over the past year.
Jodie

Listening to: Tourniquet by Marilyn Manson
_{I wrapped our love in all this foil
silver tight like spider legs
I never wanted it to ever spoil}
Mood: Vocal... Sort of happy.



<sub>1. First Name: Jodie

2. Were you named after anyone? Nope.

3. Do you wish on stars? Yep.

4. When did you last cry? Two weeks ago.

5. Do you like your handwriting? Yep.

6. What is your favorite lunch meat? Steak.

7. What is your birth date? August 13th, 1987

8. What is your most embarrassing CD? Bic Runga?

9. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you? Of course.

10. Are you a daredevil? Yep.

11. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell? Ummm, maybe? Can't remember..

12. Do looks matter? To a degree.

13. How do you release anger? Screaming, listening to my music...

14. Where is your second home? Uhhh, dont have one?

15. Do you trust others easily? Yes.

16. What was your favorite toy as a child? I have a teddy called Winnie (short for Winifred), my mummy made her. I used to sleep with her in my arms every night!

17. What class in high school do you think was totally useless? Society & Environment, Physics.

18. Do you have a journal? Yeah, my expressions diary..

19. Do you use sarcasm a lot? Sometimes...

22. What are your nicknames? Dodie, Jodelz, Yodelz, Jodez, Yodie, Dodikins, Wodie, Jo and Scrodelz

23. Would you bungee jump? Yeah.. if i was in one of my crazy moods!

24. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? Rarely

25. Do you think that you are strong? Uhh.. Don't really think about that?

27. What's your favorite ice cream flavor? Chocolate !

28. Shoe Size? 10... God knows what country..

29. Red/Pink? PiNK!

30. What is your least favorite thing about yourself? The dark rings under my eyes & my fat ass lol

31. Who do you miss most? Lexi girl

32. What color pants are you wearing? Turquoise !

33. What are you listening to right now? "Drugs, they say are made in California" Dope Show by Marilyn Manson

34. Last thing you ate? Ham & Cheese Toasted Sandwich!

35. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Pink, white and turquoise swirled crayon!

36. What is the weather like right now? Warm, breezy - Nice!

37. Last person you talked to on the phone? Trevor

38. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Smile, Mannerisms, Personality.

39. Favorite Drink? Uhh... BUNDY!

40. Favorite Sport? Volleyball

41. Eye Color? Dark Brown

42. Do you wear contacts? Nooooo

43. Favorite Food? Uhh... Potatoes.. Chips etc.

44. Last Movie You Watched? Starsky & Hutch

45. Favorite Day Of The Year? My Birfday!

46. Scary Movies Or Happy Endings? Both!

47. Summer Or Winter? Winter!

48. Hugs OR Kisses? Both !

49. What is Your Favorite Dessert? Milkshakes, Cornettos.

50. Living Arrangements? Wid oldies.

51. What Books Are You Reading? The Collector, man I love that book.

52. What's On Your Mouse Pad? Dont have one!

53. What Did You Watch Last night on TV? I was at work!

54. Favorite Smells? Frangipanis, Musk Candles, Warm baths, Guys deodorant.

55. Rolling Stones or Beatles? Errr.. NEITHER!

56. Do you believe in Evolution or Creation? Evolution "YOU SAY YOU WANT AN EVOLUTION.. THE APE WAS A GREAT BIG HIT... YOU SAY YOU WANT A REVOLUTION MAN AND I SAY THAT YOU'RE FULL OF SHIT!"

57. What's the furthest you've been from home? Canberra lol



Omg omg.. Trevvie Trevvie... He's such a sweeeety.
Just got off the phone to him before... Shame he lives like 6 hours away hey.
Whats the bet that my mum will let me go road-trippin wid Karlee & Blake to see him?
I'd love to see him...

Basically the story goes like this:
Last holidays I spent alot of time with Karlee.. now Karlee's boyfriend, Blake, has a best friend who used to live up here now in Canarvon and his name is Trevor ... We all went to the beach one day.. He did not say one word to me the whole day (shy of course) and omg he was gorgeous.. Especially with a shirt off if ya know what I'm saying.
We also went to the school at like 12 am one night (its illegal to do that haha) and we sat around.. he was chucking grass in my hair, then helped me take it all out again. Karlee picked up on the chemistry.. But we both couldn't tell for sure.
Then the movies... We came an inch away from hooking up and again.. heee was too shy.. and I figured he wanted Cass.. GAHHHH....BUT...
Just this week I found out that he did like me and wanted something.. but wanted to wait til after Leavers.. cooozzz.. CASS was going.. Then Karlee, Blake and I told him of Cass' 'habits' and turned him off her lol....
But theres no gurantees he wont try anything so Karlee's gonna watch him hahaha...



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I hope not...</sub>

Listening to: Stairway to Heaven by Led Zeppelin
Feeling: Braindead
Reading: The Collector by John Fowles
Latest Movie: The Village
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And she's buying the stairway to heaven...

Yeah new song now I've been sitting here for a while now.. staring blankly at my computer.. smelt something funny and realized my brain's overheated
Cursed intertextual essays...
I love this Miranda chick in the Collector though.. especially as she's an artist. Some of things she says are sooo true. True to me in a personal perspective anyway. Some quotes:

"I hate the uneducated and the ignorant. I hate the pompous and the phoney. I hate the jealous and the resentful. I hate the crabbed and the mean and the petty. I hate all ordinary dull little people who aren't ashamed of being dull and little
...
I love honesty and freedom and giving. I love making. I love doing, I love being to the full, I love everything which is not sitting and watching and copying and dead at heart."

I can completely relate to that.
Sometimes I just want to run down the street screaming and laughing and fall on the soft grass underneath the Benjamin tree on Tambrey oval...

Ooo.. and it makes me wonder

One of these days I'll do exactly that.
In front of all the Falcons boys who in no doubt will be sitting next door with Dean. Just to let them know I don't care.
I'll walk to Pegs Creek and throw a rock in Brad's window, laugh and sigh happily. Just to show him You never broke me

I'll dance in the rain, lie on the muddy grass and laugh.
Just laugh.
Coz life's too amusing just to frown at.
You know what !
I am a freak!
I'm not boring, plain or ordinary.
I'm everything that Brad isn't!
I'm everything I want to be.
Impulsive. Loving. Caring. Affectionate. Ditzy. Giving. Free Spirited. Wild.

Give me abnormality. I love the stuff.
Need the stuff.

Listening to: Lacuna Coil - Heaven's a Lie
Mood: Giggly/Silly (Well.. I've just spent the day with Karlee.. OF COURSE I'm going to be giggly)



Oh no... there it is again, I need to know

<sub>I've spent the day with Karlee.. omg she's funny. First I made my sister and I lunch.. then I made cheesy straws - yum - and then went down the shops with Karlee, got her photos developed.. bought a cake mix and went to her house. Then we made the cake.. then Karlee pulled it out before the middle was cooked and the middle of it went flop and straight through the cooling rack lol. THEN.. we made the filling.. she cut it in half and all the insides went EVERYWHERE... then we made the icing.. put that on.. and we went to get Karlee's bf, Blake. Came back.. showed him the cake and blamed meeses for eating our cake lol... (mice) sooo we ate some anyway! lol... He grossed out which was hilarious...

I made my dev id again.. more artistical! lol.. strangely that sounds like testical? Gah! lol oh well.. Anyway.. Jodie is off to watch TV and mess about.. Joosh.. If you read this... RING ME.. I miss you</sub>

Feeling: Lethargic.... Sleep...
Listening to: High by Feeder




<sub>I'm going out for a while so I can go get high with my friends...

So tired lately.. Dunno why.. I keep waking up for no reason, which really pisses me off.. Oh well. I guess, no matter how hard I try to hide it.. I'm really upset.
Today was the last day I would ever definetly see my friends at school. I'm lonely, but I'm not going to go into that..
I inked a pic today which I will put on later tonight.. when i can be bothered that is.
I slept really well last night.. but I'm still tired now.. I think it's all that thinking I do... But it's all pointless thinking. Creating situations in my mind which I know probably won't ever happen.. *sigh*.. Shit happens I guess.

Speaking of negativity, I don't think I like the Elise girl I usually hang with in Year 11. Her pessimistic attitude is really getting to me, the last thing I need is someone force-feeding me all her woes, negative energy and problems. I've told her soooo many times that the only way things are going to pick up is if you pick yourself up. No one's going to come crawling to you, wave a fucking magic wand and everything turn to sugar and spice, and all things nice. Pffft. I used to be like her, thats what frustrates me. Seeing people like her and thinking 'You poor sod.. if only you knew what you were missing out on if you lightened up and enjoyed life a bit'...
Bah..

I dont know why I feel lonely... Maybe it's coz I'm being silly. The other night I sat there and realized I never get phone calls from anyone anymore... I usually have to make them.. then tell them 'You call me next time' at the end of conversation... Oh well... I found an interesting quote the other day in one of Miss Marsh's art books.. Time to end this journal

"I have a face, but a face is not what I am. Behind it is a mind, which you do not see but which looks out on you. This face, which you see but I do not, is a medium I own to expresssomething of what I am. Or so it seems till I turn to the mirror. Then my face may seem to own me; to confront me as a condition to which I am bound."</sub>